10 Songs

Yoshie

Sorry my Blog i haven't been writing on you for a while and i know you 

miss me because i miss you too (hugs the laptop).

Ok now back to my point, now since we all know i'm a cool and 

awesome person i have came up with a awesome idea just for the Negiramen to use.

10 songs is the name of what i'm going to call it..

ok so if anyone of the Negiramen is ever EVER 

heart broken or is sad in a guy situation.

10 songs pick 10 songs or make up 10 songs and sing them, 

they have to be sad songs to express your feeling like sadness, pain...etc.

but then the last song has to be happy one so that it would 

mean you are willing to forget them and move on. ^w^

then after that you can cry as much as you want but 

then afterwards you have to be happy.

During this if you cry no one can help you or comfort you, 

you'll have to cry alone till your fine.

And if 10 song doesn't work then 

it's 10 Chocolate. ^w^ (heheh yea i guess i would need both of them).

yep and that about it

One Tiring Day

 Yosh!

HAPPY OISHI DAY!

for the past few days was killing me because i had to write so much for english before the test which was on Monday.

Which reminded me of something really funny but sad (for me at least)

-Flash Back friday the 2nd-

english class

It was last period before home time and I knew we were going to 

write a hell of a lot of pages so i was opening my melon candy. 

but then it was stuck on to the wrapper was i was having a hard time getting it out, 

then a few minute after trying to get it out i just had to remove one more wrapper and

 i could eat it but too bad for me it dropped on the table and was rolling off the table and 

on to the floor and then stopped.

 i was staring at it and then back at the wrapper which i was still holding and 

then back to the candy then to the wrapper again. then when i look to the my left side 

Toffee was staring at the candy as well which made the next person look then the two person that was next to the person that was sitting next toffee looked. 

i then look back at the candy

Eiji:..*ah..my candy...*

so i then stood up and put it in the bin while walking back i was talking to myself

Eiji:(mumble)...so bad luck, it's unfair...not gonna try it again...

-Flash back-

yes very weird of me to talk to myself but it's a habit anyhow the lesson went on.

At lunch Busu was telling scary stories to Tofu

Busu:..yea then the kid was like oh what are you talking about 

           mum's right behind you, so the father turn around and saw her

Eiji:..Busu...

Busu:..what?

Eiji:(points behind busu)..there's someone behind you

so busu turned around to see melinda right next to her and jumped and screamed everyone was laughing at her

(whahahahah i was a pure genius) which then reminded me of another event that happen

-Flash Back sunday night (well it was 3:20 in the morning so i guess it's monday)-

it was 3:20 am in the morning and i happen to wake up at that time when i heard a boom noise like someone fell over in my room which then i thought it was a robber but when the person stood up they looked pretty short which made my conclusion that.....

IT WAS THE GRUDGE SON!!

i was scaring myself man!! and plus 3 am in the morning made it way worst since i believe that ghosts comes out at 3 am.

so yea but then i think again and it might of been my sister who just fell out of bed so...

Eiji:(petrified)...if your my sister go back to sleep

so the ''person'' got back on the bed and lay down

Eiji:..*so it was sanny (my  youngest sister)*....sigh....

-End Flash Back-

well then after lunch we had math which went well then it was english and i had another test..(damn...)

Warm Loving Family

You know how in life you have pain...and wished you only have happiness

well without pain you can't find true happiness but...

does the pain have to be to much?..

why does it have to be so hurtful?

ah..i seem to have change the topic of what i was really meant to writing...

but what i have to write does kind of involve what i just said....

When i thought just maybe i would be able to know what it feels like 

to have a family...yes i want to know what a real warm family feels like...

ah but too bad for me...i guess in this life i just don't have it....

today... my mum just told me..my dad had left us for good...

he is not going to come back...he is going to stay with someone else

i  do think it's right for him to leave since he did hurt my mum,my family and me

but... i really did wished that he could of chose us instead of a blind love 

and had stayed and loved us.....

He could of at lease showed me that a family really is...

and could of proven that ''family may stay but they will never last'' was wrong

Everyday and night..my mum was in pain..

she wanted to move on but was always looking back....

she still loved him

...

it's getting harder to fake everything was ok

it's harder to believe what i want to believe

it's harder to wear a smile every time....

it's impossible to have warm loving family for me

Some Times You Hate Holidays

Yosh!

I don't like holidays it's evil because i there's nothing to do.some times you wish you could avoid home but holidays MAKES you stay home (i go with the point)..TwT

I also miss toffee its not fair! Christmas was no fun as well!!! i was having burnt meat!!! (but that was my fault) and i was at home with my little sister that i want to assassinate..(how cruel of them to leave me at home with her....)

Oh and yes what i really hate IS THAT I MISS TOFFEE!!!

7 quotes of how much i miss you:

1. Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it   is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!

2. If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.

3. You may be out of my sight… but never out of my mind… I Miss You!

4. I heard someone whisper your name, but when I turned around to see who it was, I was alone. Then I realized that it was my heart telling me that I miss you.

5. Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell.  

6. Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart

7. Within you I lose myself...Without you I find myself....Wanting to be lost again