Pain

when you have a family what did you expect off corse to always be together and love each other. Too bad mine isn't and i know that others can have the same problem as well but...

mine is different since i was 6 i thought that it would be my parents last fight but it ended up every once a year they would fight and it would increase more per year. This year though might be the worst yet. it was the 2nd time this year, my dad was with another women again..... my mum and grandpa was in a lot of pain they even cried because of it. just two days from now my dad left to vietnam with that women, my mum knew off corse but she never complain actually she never does anymore since she'd been though this over a thousand times.

but what hurt me most was that...i heard my mum said my dad got that women pregnant but she wasn't sure but if it was true then you have no idea what kind of pain i'm in.i mean wasn't having me and little sisters enough?wasn't my mum good enough?

Every time when i'm going though this i end up having to go to school faking to be happy when the inside of me is hurting,i was torn in pieces and i'm crying on the inside.when people caught me i have to lie about it. This would be the worst pain i know and i have ever had. it scarred me in both my heart and mind i'm hoping that i would be able to forget it.

sometime i wish i could die peacefully just so in my next life would be better......

i wish things were different

i wish that my dad would of never gave my mum,family and me this pain

i wish that she could of gotten better then this

if she was with someone better from the start and found happiness i wouldn't mind thati wasn't even been born in this world 

this would of made me really happy

true happiness